Dead Love

Dead love
I felt it when I first saw you
Didn’t express it because I didn’t know if it was true
I would tell you now but it’s too late
Bad things come to those who wait
After a while got tired of waiting for reply
When you left I saw a tear in your eye
Now you’re gone and it’s my love I’ve  lost
I’ve learned from my mistakes but you were the cost
You stayed beside me even though you weren’t sure
Just give me one more chance and I’ll make it mean more
I can’t help but wonder if I had told you how I felt
Would you have still left or would it have helped
I have to know would you still love me
You were the light in my darkness now I can’t see
You were everything then you went away
You’ve left me and now those words I can’t say
Now you are holding him in my place
Left with the pain inside and sorrow on my face
I hope he was smart enough to tell you
I’m happy for him because I know we are through
How good you’ll be to him I want him to know
What you would do for him if only his love he let’s show
Everyone says she is the best thing to ever happen with to me
Though I usually dissent this time I must agree
Her love has made me whole again
You can see I’m not the same man I was back then
It was her who brought the smile back to my face
It was her who brought me joy in this bitter place

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I will survive

watched the great one fall
would sure that I had heard it all
descried as the world began to go down
t all started in a little town

here they created what is known as the bomb
hen they tried to reconstruct what was called Nam
here will you be able to hide now
hen no one is there on your side anyhow

n this revised world the good gone bad
nsanity stolen from the affectionately mad
nterior flipped now on the exterior
ntrigued by how you have become inferior

iving with nowhere left for you to go
ost in this realm that you used to know
ife seems to have stopped just disappeared
asting through all of what you have ever feared

apsed back Time has fallen into the darkest of days
assitude has set in stopped me of my ways
eaked out from somewhere deep within
egions of evil let your war now begin

oldiers fighting in a never ending battle
ee the bloodshed from the change you rattle
eized this country right out of your hand
eizures have now cost you your dear land

nto you now is laid the burden of shame
nfair treatment and upon you is laid all the blame
nexpected trapped you have no fallback plan
topian-ism a lie that can be created by no man

egrets I only hope that you have none
evolution sweet vengeance now it has begun
uining everything all that was invented by you
evelations that the divulgence has become true

elocity has suddenly just changed direction
etoed your tyranny without your detection
aquero has somehow managed to have lost his herd
erbatim is two sided in case you have not heard

mpressment your philosophy did not work
solated from everything in the shadows you lurk
mmigrated by the world you have lost your name
mpeached you have been taken out of the game

eraciously the hours that you have wept
irtuosity pureness now that seems to be a concept
isitation that you request we shall deny
ariations so many ways for which you could die

arnestly now is all you can do to plead
cstatic we awaited and watch you bleed
ffectuated this has become all of our hell
ffacing us all I have my answer but can you prevail

The Rebirth

The Rebirth

It has  been a long time

Since I last let my light shine

I managed to misplace who I am

But it was for my sins I was d*mned

Since then I’ve forgotten my purpose

So there’s no reason to create such a fuss

I had found serenity in being lost

Now that I remember your life will be the cost

Well I had forgotten all of it

So be satisfied with what you get

Your gods just hate you

And now I do too

They’ll never forgive you for what you’ve done

But I’ll make you my chosen one

In all your wrongs you must now revel

should have never put your god in the devil

You came and preached of goodness and care

But you found that nothing was there

You just wanted to save my soul

But no one could ever pay that toll

As long as I am your hub

I was the arc angel Beelzebub

 Well I had forgotten all of it

So be satisfied with what you get

Your gods just hate you

And now I do too

They’ll never forgive you for what you’ve done

But I’ll make you my chosen one

In all your wrongs you must now revel

should have never put your god in the devil

Now I stand more powerful than I ever was

So much sin against your god everyone does

More followers now than I ever dreamed

This is far better than any of my other schemes

So now armageddon arise

See the hate in your eyes

It’ll flow all through your veins

Til you start to like the pains

Well I had forgotten all of it

So be satisfied with what you get

Your gods just hate you

And now I do too

They’ll never forgive you for what you’ve done

But I’ll make you my chosen one

In all your wrongs you must now revel

should have never put your god in the devil

I am the one you fear

Don’t worry the end is near

All hell be on earth

Pay you for what it’s worth

Forget your martyrology

You will die because of me

Should of listened when I said no

Now you’ve awakened the great diablo

Well I had forgotten all of it

So be satisfied with what you get

Your gods just hate you

And now I do too

They’ll never forgive you for what you’ve done

But I’ll make you my chosen one

In all your wrongs you must now revel

should have never put your god in the devil

I am the one called called satan

And now I have arisen

Feel your evil deep inside

It’s where the hate abides

I’m coming back for you

The whole world will die when I’m through

I’ll bring you to my level

For I am the devil

Well I had forgotten all of it

So be satisfied with what you get

Your gods just hate you

And now I do too

They’ll never forgive you for what you’ve done

But I’ll make you my chosen one

In all your wrongs you must now revel

should have never put your god in the devil

For your sins you must pay

Drop to your knees and pray

But prayer may do you no good

You’ve gone further than you thought you could

What if your god doesn’t help you cause you are in too deep

Now your soul is mine to keep

Out of the darkness from which I dwell

It’s too late for repentance you’re going to hell

Start the war I said rebel

Should of never put your god in the devil

Anapology

Anapology

Things are never how they appear

But listen not to others please my words hear

It comes to this now an apology I must make

Back my words is something I can never take

I merely hope that you can forgive me

What was done is done but I don’t want it to be

What I did to you I know I was wrong

But I pray your feelings for me are not gone

Just give me one more chance to prove myself

What I have said I meant it is how I felt

And still feel the same but is it the same for thee

To know your answer that is my only plea

I feel as though it was a dream from which I was rudely awoke

But the truth is reality made it all in to a big joke

To just go back to my dreaming is now all that I ask

For all I have is my memories in which to bask

I request another chance just one more try

To you it is that I make this heart filled cry

And to god I make this one last prayer

I just need to know if you still care

And ask for the courage for these words to say

May all the others but this wish fade away

If only I could be a thief again this prize I would never part

For the score in my eyes this time is your heart

Sanctuary

Sanctuary

Always on the run and what do I get

Nothing nothing but more of your sh*t

I try to understand but you don’t explain

The more I try the more I feel this pain

All I ever wanted was to just belong

All the happiness in me drained now gone

Some secretion I need some place to hide

I hate this for I know how you have lied

Sanctuary

Oh so contrary

You aim to tranquilize what you have come to fear

All you hate lies in me so near

Silence it go ahead and make me a mute

I am ready I stand here destitute

I still can feel what you have planned to do

Proceed for I would if capable to condemn you

Glorify me silently censure me when they are around

Well try to chide this this is what I have found

Sanctuary

Concealed

It’s the truth though it’s hard to believe

It’s even more than my mind could have conceived

Though it sounds strange this is the true

I have fallen in love with you

There’s only one thing that stops me from confessing

The pressure of my friends pressing

On me I can’t handle it it’s just too much

So it is for these reasons I have kept it such a hush

This will be the only medium in which I have ever said

What I feel in my stomach and think in my head

This thing is the  closest to anything I could fear

That is why my friends shall never hear

For I will never tell another living soul

But in some way my affection you have stole

Aside from this no one else knows

And I hope that it never shows

I know that you feel the same for me

But because of things unsaid it will never be

Now time has gone by and I know that it was true

I still feel the same but is it the same for you?

Shut In

Shut In

You were the only one close to me

The only one who could see

My intuitions my pain my suffering

Since you left the people I’ve been repudiating

Swore that I’d never let another that close

Keeping away the one thing I needed most

I fobbed them all and all of their help

Keep them away to keep the pain away from myself

Lost the friends I could’ve had endless trepidation

Pain inside eats away with no point of accumulation

Killing me away too late for succor

Getting hard to believe I didn’t want to be cared for

Feeling consternation from too many voices in my head

Listening to you but never heard a word you said

Laugh at me as I make this my last hurrah

Holding it in my mind created my hydra

Love and hate two emotions that are too close of kin

So different but so alike to me they are both a sin

My sanity the anguish is beginning to masticate

There is no turning back now it’s too late

Being going on for so long but it seems so sudden

There’s no doubting it now it’s all here I’m a shut in

I’ve become the only thing that I have ever feared

My scars by grief have now been seared

Past present and future all seems too dark

My life meant nothing at all in stark

My only shtick is that of being a user

Shut myself in to become a loser

Self insomnia has become copious

No longer belonging no longer feeling homosapious

Tormented so long I have become corded

Thoughts in my head being distorted

For sanctum I’ll make this deal

The time is now to tell how I feel

Start the violence bring the end

Peace is a dream for life never mends

The paradox is true in all my words

I carry with me the end time so you’ve heard

All will happen because of my simple promise

But if you are the one who can stop it I’ll call an armistice

Keeping it inside destroying my depot

That is why my feelings I will never let show

So are you happy now that you know

 For my only friend is my only foe