Dead Love

Dead love
I felt it when I first saw you
Didn’t express it because I didn’t know if it was true
I would tell you now but it’s too late
Bad things come to those who wait
After a while got tired of waiting for reply
When you left I saw a tear in your eye
Now you’re gone and it’s my love I’ve  lost
I’ve learned from my mistakes but you were the cost
You stayed beside me even though you weren’t sure
Just give me one more chance and I’ll make it mean more
I can’t help but wonder if I had told you how I felt
Would you have still left or would it have helped
I have to know would you still love me
You were the light in my darkness now I can’t see
You were everything then you went away
You’ve left me and now those words I can’t say
Now you are holding him in my place
Left with the pain inside and sorrow on my face
I hope he was smart enough to tell you
I’m happy for him because I know we are through
How good you’ll be to him I want him to know
What you would do for him if only his love he let’s show
Everyone says she is the best thing to ever happen with to me
Though I usually dissent this time I must agree
Her love has made me whole again
You can see I’m not the same man I was back then
It was her who brought the smile back to my face
It was her who brought me joy in this bitter place

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Who I am

Who I am
This is what you should know
I’ve seen your rulers come and go
Have been here from the beginning of it all
I’ve taken them on from the biggest too small
I have no feeling
For the lives I’ve been stealing
Caring not for the job I do
Am I myth or am I really true
By now many know the answer
But none live to confer
It may be hard to believe
And I do not mean for you to be deceived
For those of you don’t not know God
Know there is no reason for you to hide
From your birth to now you’re grave you’ve dug deeper
And when the time comes I’ll put you there for I am the Grim Reaper

I will survive

watched the great one fall
would sure that I had heard it all
descried as the world began to go down
t all started in a little town

here they created what is known as the bomb
hen they tried to reconstruct what was called Nam
here will you be able to hide now
hen no one is there on your side anyhow

n this revised world the good gone bad
nsanity stolen from the affectionately mad
nterior flipped now on the exterior
ntrigued by how you have become inferior

iving with nowhere left for you to go
ost in this realm that you used to know
ife seems to have stopped just disappeared
asting through all of what you have ever feared

apsed back Time has fallen into the darkest of days
assitude has set in stopped me of my ways
eaked out from somewhere deep within
egions of evil let your war now begin

oldiers fighting in a never ending battle
ee the bloodshed from the change you rattle
eized this country right out of your hand
eizures have now cost you your dear land

nto you now is laid the burden of shame
nfair treatment and upon you is laid all the blame
nexpected trapped you have no fallback plan
topian-ism a lie that can be created by no man

egrets I only hope that you have none
evolution sweet vengeance now it has begun
uining everything all that was invented by you
evelations that the divulgence has become true

elocity has suddenly just changed direction
etoed your tyranny without your detection
aquero has somehow managed to have lost his herd
erbatim is two sided in case you have not heard

mpressment your philosophy did not work
solated from everything in the shadows you lurk
mmigrated by the world you have lost your name
mpeached you have been taken out of the game

eraciously the hours that you have wept
irtuosity pureness now that seems to be a concept
isitation that you request we shall deny
ariations so many ways for which you could die

arnestly now is all you can do to plead
cstatic we awaited and watch you bleed
ffectuated this has become all of our hell
ffacing us all I have my answer but can you prevail

The Rebirth

The Rebirth

It has  been a long time

Since I last let my light shine

I managed to misplace who I am

But it was for my sins I was d*mned

Since then I’ve forgotten my purpose

So there’s no reason to create such a fuss

I had found serenity in being lost

Now that I remember your life will be the cost

Well I had forgotten all of it

So be satisfied with what you get

Your gods just hate you

And now I do too

They’ll never forgive you for what you’ve done

But I’ll make you my chosen one

In all your wrongs you must now revel

should have never put your god in the devil

You came and preached of goodness and care

But you found that nothing was there

You just wanted to save my soul

But no one could ever pay that toll

As long as I am your hub

I was the arc angel Beelzebub

 Well I had forgotten all of it

So be satisfied with what you get

Your gods just hate you

And now I do too

They’ll never forgive you for what you’ve done

But I’ll make you my chosen one

In all your wrongs you must now revel

should have never put your god in the devil

Now I stand more powerful than I ever was

So much sin against your god everyone does

More followers now than I ever dreamed

This is far better than any of my other schemes

So now armageddon arise

See the hate in your eyes

It’ll flow all through your veins

Til you start to like the pains

Well I had forgotten all of it

So be satisfied with what you get

Your gods just hate you

And now I do too

They’ll never forgive you for what you’ve done

But I’ll make you my chosen one

In all your wrongs you must now revel

should have never put your god in the devil

I am the one you fear

Don’t worry the end is near

All hell be on earth

Pay you for what it’s worth

Forget your martyrology

You will die because of me

Should of listened when I said no

Now you’ve awakened the great diablo

Well I had forgotten all of it

So be satisfied with what you get

Your gods just hate you

And now I do too

They’ll never forgive you for what you’ve done

But I’ll make you my chosen one

In all your wrongs you must now revel

should have never put your god in the devil

I am the one called called satan

And now I have arisen

Feel your evil deep inside

It’s where the hate abides

I’m coming back for you

The whole world will die when I’m through

I’ll bring you to my level

For I am the devil

Well I had forgotten all of it

So be satisfied with what you get

Your gods just hate you

And now I do too

They’ll never forgive you for what you’ve done

But I’ll make you my chosen one

In all your wrongs you must now revel

should have never put your god in the devil

For your sins you must pay

Drop to your knees and pray

But prayer may do you no good

You’ve gone further than you thought you could

What if your god doesn’t help you cause you are in too deep

Now your soul is mine to keep

Out of the darkness from which I dwell

It’s too late for repentance you’re going to hell

Start the war I said rebel

Should of never put your god in the devil

Shut In

Shut In

You were the only one close to me

The only one who could see

My intuitions my pain my suffering

Since you left the people I’ve been repudiating

Swore that I’d never let another that close

Keeping away the one thing I needed most

I fobbed them all and all of their help

Keep them away to keep the pain away from myself

Lost the friends I could’ve had endless trepidation

Pain inside eats away with no point of accumulation

Killing me away too late for succor

Getting hard to believe I didn’t want to be cared for

Feeling consternation from too many voices in my head

Listening to you but never heard a word you said

Laugh at me as I make this my last hurrah

Holding it in my mind created my hydra

Love and hate two emotions that are too close of kin

So different but so alike to me they are both a sin

My sanity the anguish is beginning to masticate

There is no turning back now it’s too late

Being going on for so long but it seems so sudden

There’s no doubting it now it’s all here I’m a shut in

I’ve become the only thing that I have ever feared

My scars by grief have now been seared

Past present and future all seems too dark

My life meant nothing at all in stark

My only shtick is that of being a user

Shut myself in to become a loser

Self insomnia has become copious

No longer belonging no longer feeling homosapious

Tormented so long I have become corded

Thoughts in my head being distorted

For sanctum I’ll make this deal

The time is now to tell how I feel

Start the violence bring the end

Peace is a dream for life never mends

The paradox is true in all my words

I carry with me the end time so you’ve heard

All will happen because of my simple promise

But if you are the one who can stop it I’ll call an armistice

Keeping it inside destroying my depot

That is why my feelings I will never let show

So are you happy now that you know

 For my only friend is my only foe

Trapped in confusion

Symbol of Confusion

Symbol of Confusion (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Trapped in confusion

Got here by a mistake I made

Everything I’ve got has become jade

Going in the direction that I feel is forward

Trying to make a difference but get held down by the horde

Don’t think I ever wanted to change anything

I never tried to be a hero-ling

No different from all of you

Feel hate and pain through and through

But I merely revel in things like this

Speak but no one lists and it dissolves to nothingness

Nothing is spurious it’s all an illusion

Trapped in this clear orderly state of confusion

Up in the mind is where they ravish me

Increase suffering strip away reality

Forever trusting not knowing on my own

No reason no love just here to adorn

Down to rest my feeling I have laid

For some reason they just won’t fade

Pieces of me dying so I can stay alive

Always straightforward always in a jive

Killing the pain but only killing the man

Truly ad nauseam in the healthiest ad rem

Adoed admonition is truly an opus

Sounding salutary yet it is only adscititious

Intuition tells me to be mad still I smile

Humanity’s just a dream it’s all to vile

Cheer me up and always let me down

Forever searching for true adytum

Holding me down only hurting you

Fearing what you do not know killing Milieu

Ensconcing aesthesia from the aesthete

Too long you have done this treacherous feat

Broken state of mind under epimorphosis

Finding a way to escape with adroitness

Cessation will never arrive truly vertigo

Living eternity alone ner friend nor foe

Comprehend the words I’ve written without dis conception

Written in this is all of my erudition

Killed by my will not by my staff

Tis what I want written on my epitaph

What is Done

What is Done

All that I did, all that was done
All was for you, but for me was none
In your time of need, it was me you volunteered
And when I looked back at you; you cheered
Me onward to do those things, no one else would do
All used up, I do more, all because of you
In my time of glory, while I was not looking
Deep within you, you had a plan that was cooking
To deny me the rights that I so truly deserve
So I hope you are happy, you’ve gotten to my last nerve
I will give you what you want, just for one last time
But no more from now on, my true light will shine
It puzzles me, on why you would do so
But I care not, nor do I wish to know
All the time I gave and gave, but never did I receive
Until finally you gave me something though it’s hard to believe
What did you? You ask; you gave me my reason
To do this, what is done