Forget them

Forget them

Forget  them
Telling me what to do
Telling me when I’m through
Forget them
Telling what is right
Telling me what to like
Forget  them
Controlling my strength and might
Controlling the things I write
Forget them
Controlling my emotions
Controlling my abrasions
Forget them
Thinking they know what I think
Thinking they can continue this hi-jink
Forget them
Thinking they know what I want
Thinking they can  go on with this taunt
Forget them
Tired of letting them be my everything
Tired of being your nothing
Forget them
I’m tired of living this way
Leaving me with one thing to say
Forget them

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Stargazer

Stargazer

Stargazer, you’re such a fool,
Did you really think that you could be cool?
You’ll never find, what you’re not looking for
Don’t you know that you deserve so much more
At least you are looking to the right place
But don’t you worry, wipe the tears from your face
So why don’t you look, up to the stars
Just remember that you have to look pretty hard
And then maybe you shall be able to see
That your stars have been trying to lead you to me
You’ll see that you never needed your stars
Cause they can only lead you so far
They showed you an image of you and me
Don’t you understand that it is meant to be?
By a miracle I was brought here somehow
And if you ask me, I’ll be here for you now.

Falling

FALLING

The ride is over but it was fun,
While it lasted but this is the last one
For too long I’ve kept you going with my lying
Lie no more cause truth is I’m dying
Hate, hate has always surrounded me
I blamed it on you, but it was my jealousy
It was me who caused you to destroy
Told you it was justice, but it was just a decoy
So I could blame you for the hurt that I caused
I never felt sorry till I stood and paused
To reflect on all that was devastated by my hand
The darkness in the realm of light is this man
I did to you what I felt was done to me
That doesn’t justify it, but stands to be
D one is done; finished but it was wrong
I apologize now before I’m gone
It may be hard to believe, because of my past
Believe what you want, but I told the truth at last
If you don’t believe me, stop me when you heard too much
Laid upon your heart, it hurts, because the truth has begun to touch
The lies were well thought through, and proven by the innocence in my eyes
The innocence was lost long ago and I wish to apologize
For all that I’ve done, wrongs I can’t right
Engulfed in the darkness, hiding in the light
Pretending to be what you wanted of me
Still you chose not to accept what I have come to be
The fear of not being accepted grew too much
The pain, reached a highest level of such
Such greatness to where the pain felt great
Then the more I lied, and more pain you caused, made it feel good to hate
For the first time I felt as though I was apart
And I kept it going on until I had no heart
But still I kept going until I could no longer dream
To lose the ability to dream is to lose everything
That’s for the best for now I do not feel ashamed
I at least know that I am to be the one blamed
I merely hope that I can be forgiven
For making worse the world I live in
I’m sorry; I hope I haven’t gone too far
Will you catch me I’m a falling star?

Why

Why

That was the last time I’d believe in your lies
I’ve learned to see through the deception in your eyes
All it’s ever done, is just hurt me
Thought of you as a friend, but your just an enemy
But now is the time to stop it all
I’ve fallen down but you continue to beat until it hurts to crawl
I’m never going to give up, won’t give in. I cannot quit
Go ahead, hurt me some more, just get on with it
I don’t understand why you hate me. But I’m not going to complain
I’ve taught myself to where I can’t feel the pain
Tried not to but all I can do is hate you
Blood or not, it doesn’t matter, we’re through
We were siblings once, but not any more
For the time is now to settle the score
The only thing you ever taught me is distrust
I am not going to fall for it again
My heart lays in pieces that will never mend
My own emotions and feelings I’ve begun to smother
See, what you taught me, My brother

Sick-N-Tired

Sick-N-Tired

I know I’m only a teen
But that don’t mean a thing
Because I’m’ sick and tired of what they put you through
And I sick an tired of what they say, too
They think that you’re here for them to step on you
Now it’s time to stand up for our rights
An, now’s the time to stand up and fight
Now is the time to say I don’t give a damn about what they say about me
Cause now I don’t care and all I want to be free
It’s time to break these chains and take charge of my life
I want to be me all I want is to be me
All I want to be is me
I don’t care what you want for me
I want to fly higher than
I want to be better than
I want to run faster than
I want to be smarter than
I want to control my life more than
You could ever dream
I’m like a free bird now, softly, bird, and fly
An I don’t want to do what you say
I don’t want to join your army
I only want to be me, that’s all I’m cut out to be
And you can’t change the unchangeable
You can’t move the unmovable
And you can’t make me do this any more
Cause I ‘m just going to be me
That’s all I’m going to be

I Was Wrong

I Was Wrong

Never knew her like I should’ve
Didn’t take the chance when I could’ve
Now I’m left wandering what might have been
How could I have let this happen?
How could I let her get away?
I can’t stand it, can’t take this convey
Thought it would be better, to just let her be
But now, all its doing is driving me crazy
All I ever did was say her name
But for more, I took the blame
I will not lie I wanted to do more
But it never surpassed a thought and my mind it tore
But that’s not true, it’s all a lie
She is still here, she’s just not mine
And now we are in the middle of a test
And I’m stuck wishing for the best
But my question is what the best would be?
For there is another whose heart belongs to me
What if her feelings for me are real?
For already my life has come to a stand still
Who I want is what I must choose
But do I have everything to gain or nothing to lose
No matter what, I’ll hurt someone
But so far hurting me is all it has done
My feelings are insanely true
But is it the same in you
If not I hope we can still be friends
For nothing between us ever really happened
But I don’t know if it could be the same
For now for the first time I feel shame
I will always think of you as more
The sight of thy beauty will make my imagination soar
And I will always remember that night of you and me
But the thought of it never happening again is making me crazy
I was wrong….

The Evil

The Evil

You want to be like, want to be like me
But the one you try, the one you try to hurt is me
Hurt me I won’t feel, I won’t feel a thing
All I ever wanted to, wanted to be was the king

You criticize me, but I am you.
You see I can play this game, too
Kick me when I’m down, kick me more
You do my deeds with no mind for what’s in store

It’s my ways that you are not supposed to follow
I am the lump in your throat that you can’t swallow
I am the voice in your head, the one that you can’t control
I am the one who wants you dead, the one that wants your soul

I have become you and without me you can never be whole
And with time, my wrath will take its toll
You can’t kill me so your attempts are feeble
I am he who wants it all, for I am the evil

I want you to look into my eyes, and they will gain your trust
But behind them are lies that I must
Use to change you, and use to deceive, too
I use them to be, to become one with you

I’m the pain inside, the pain inside that makes you kill
I’m the one that, the one that you can’t feel
Blinded by your rage, I’m your only optical
Who’s to say the things you do are immoral

Hate is the only, the only weapon I can use
But I swear, I swear I’ll be nice if my ways you choose
It’s just you, just you and your body I want to abuse
For I am the evil, so no matter what way you go you’ll lose

Lying, cheating, and death are mine, all my things
Still want to be like me, for sorrow is all it will bring
Nothing good will come, will ever come from me
Please open your eyes, open your eyes can’t you see

I want you to, I want you to be a big man
Come on bring it bring it on like I know you can
Do what you got to, do what you got to do, I want frown
Step up, step up to me, and I’ll put you down